Inner Struggles: Life's Essential Ingredients

MY PERSONAL STRUGGLES

For the past few weeks and days, I have been into so much emotional struggle that I have somehow forgotten my real focus in life.

I have been struggling with my inner self and the outside forces that I have been dealing with.

There comes a time in a person’s life when you just feel so lost and confused with what you are going to do with your life.

So many thoughts come into mind but confusion only brings you further down the path of loneliness and feeling of being lost in life.

I have been in that kind of struggle for so many days now. I lost direction and I didn’t know where I should really be going. I have lost all trust and confidence in myself and my abilities.

Now, after what seemed to be endless days of sadness, confusion, and tears; I have come to the realization that all I really need in my life are the things that I already have within my reach.

I have been so consumed wanting to have so much more than what I already have that I have neglected the things that really mattered to me.

These feelings are never new to anybody because at one point in our lives, we do get lost and confused that we feel like our lives are worthless and we feel this worthlessness in our whole being.

THE QUEST OF FINDING ONESELF

We live in a world where everything seems to be fast-paced and when we get left behind, that’s when the emptiness starts to consume us.

I must admit, I have been feeling the incomplete feeling of being a plain stay-at-home mother. I see most of my friends and colleagues in a far different state from mine and I feel smaller by the minute.

I see how successful others are in their own fields that I sometimes ask myself the words “what if?”

What if I wasn’t a stay-at-home mother? What if I continued on with my career as a nurse? What if I tried putting up my own business?

I have had so many questions in my mind for the past few months. I feel like I am meant for something more than just staying at home.

I argued with my own self and even with the people around me just so I could start my quest of finding myself again.

I felt like I needed to break free from a chain I have put upon myself. I wanted to feel like I was important once again. I needed to feel that my thoughts and ideas do matter.

THE ANSWER TO MY QUESTIONS

Until, I finally found the answer after praying intently and deeply one day while I was inside the church. I finally decided to lift everything up to Him. I felt like my relationship with my family has been deeply affected by my inner struggles.

In my quest for finding myself again, I have become so distant to my family that I began to hurt them bit by bit.

Now I realized I didn’t really need to find myself elsewhere because I have everything I needed beside me all along.

I have a loving and understanding family that sticks with me no matter how distant I may seem sometimes. The most special one of them is my 5-year-old son who has innocently loved me no matter what.

I remember him seeing me cry one time and he just came to me and gave me a very warm embrace full of love and understanding. He understood that all I ever needed at that time was his loving embrace.

I just needed to cry myself out that time and there was no other person beside me but my loving son. He comforted me and made me remember how blessed I really am.

Yes, I may no longer be as known and respected as before but my son has made me realize that he was all I needed to feel my importance in this life.

And so, when I had the chance to pray it all out to God, I took the chance to ask for His guidance and provision of clarity into my thoughts.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE

You may have also been in a similar situation as me or maybe you are currently going through it right now but let me assure you by telling you that you are never alone in this world.

You are never alone in your struggles because someone is also going through what you are into right now like what I have also been into.

You are furthermore definitely never alone because He has always been there for you, watching you and waiting for you to call on Him.

My greatest mistake was not asking Him for guidance early on. I was so consumed thinking about what I wanted for my life that I forgot to ask Him to lead me to where He has planned me to be.

Now, my heart has been opened to the fact that I should be thankful and happy with what I have now because where I am right now is where He has chosen me to be.

GOD HAS A PLAN FOR YOU

Many times in our lives we tend to never be contented with what we have that we begin to feel sorry for ourselves because of wanting what we don’t have.

Whatever you have right now and where ever you may be at this very moment is God’s plan for you. Don’t be too hard on yourself by looking for what isn’t there but instead, appreciate what has been given for you to work on.

When we are at our lowest moment in life, we sometimes think that we are not blessed and life is so unfair for putting us in such a lowly situation. What we fail to see is that God has a perfect plan for us somewhere along the way.

When you feel like things are not working out right and everything is so messy, remember that this is not yet the end of your journey and brighter days will come soon, at their right moment.

YOU ARE UNBREAKABLE

Misery, sadness, and pain are all but part of life that we can never avoid. These are the ingredients that will make us better persons and make us strong enough to face all the struggles that life will still offer in the long run.

Think of all your trials as means to prepare you for the worst and the best. Yes, you may be in the worst situation you have ever been into right now; but it will soon pass.

Trials, problems, and struggles will soon be over and you as a person will still be whole after all the heartbreaking times.

Your heart may break at times but your spirit will always be whole until the time your heart finally mends from all the painful things you have been through.

So for all of you out there who are going through tough times right now, always remember; they will soon be over.

I wish you a wonderful day and may the good Lord Bless you with the things your heart asks for.

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Have you ever experienced wanting something so bad that you are willing to sacrifice anything just to get it, but you just can’t seem to achieve it?

Have you ever experienced failing at something that you feel so sad and empty because you wanted so much to succeed at it?

Have you ever fallen in love but have been so hurt by that person you love that you feel so broken?

FAME and DEPRESSION

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Have you often wondered why a lot of successful people still feel incomplete despite everything they have in life?

Why does it seem like the rich and famous still find it hard to find true happiness?

If you look at it from a general point of view, even successful people are not saved from the bounds of depression.

Why do you think many Hollywood stars succumb to drug or substance addiction? It’s because they are battling inner demons that are eating them from deep inside.

Why do many people, including the rich and famous commit suicide? It’s because they have this certain emptiness inside that no amount of money or fame could ever suffice for.

You’ll be surprised at the list of people with major depressive disorder that I have read from Wikipedia. A lot of famous celebrities and personalities, whom you never would have thought could be depressed, have made it to the list.

Even Oprah Winfrey has experienced a major depression one time in her life.

Many of us long for something in our lives and sometimes we get down and desperate when we don’t get them. Some long for money, some for fame, some for power, and some for true love.

Whatever it is that’s missing in our lives, we don’t stop acting until we get it.

That is where depression sets in. When you try so hard to reach for that missing part of your life but you just can’t get it, the feelings of being incomplete and empty begin to conquer your whole being.

A PERSONAL CONFESSION

 

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I may not really know how a person with depression really feels inside and I may not also know if I am indeed suffering from a depressive disorder, but there are just those moments when I feel so empty inside.

I feel as if there’s something missing in my life but I just could not figure out what that missing piece really is.

Sometimes when I’m alone with myself, I just couldn’t help but feel the emptiness in my heart. I feel a certain pain and loneliness inside me that I just could not explain.

This could be depression, but again, this could be just another one of my changes in mood. Whatever it is, I certainly am not the happiest person on earth.

Is It HARD to ACHIEVE HAPPINESS?

 

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If you come to think of it, is there ever someone who has lived truly and genuinely happy? I guess, as humans, we all battle our inner struggles in life.

I have never known anyone who has ever said that he/she has no problem in life.

Everyone has his/her own battle to win. We were just given different scenarios and different intensities of trials and struggles, but we all eventually experience these kinds of things.

I must admit, my life is not perfect and I am not a perfect person as well. No one is ever perfect, but the least we can do is to lift each other up in times when one is down in the darkness of life.

DEPRESSION and SUICIDE

 

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I have seen a lot of people commit suicide because they felt their life had no more meaning, and them being here on earth does not make sense at all.

Robin Williams’ suicidal death came as a shock to me when I heard it on the news. He seemed to be so full of happiness and positivity, what I and many others failed to see is that he was also just a human being who also felt lonely and empty at times.

Robin Williams’ movies have always inspired me and made me laugh my brains out. I specially loved “Patch Adams,” which has touched my heart in a very unique way.

It’s really sad that a very inspiring person such as Robin Williams had to die that way. He was alone with his inner struggles until he could no longer bear them.

I had a relative who also committed suicide because of all the different factors of life that seemed to have weakened his weary spirit. He belonged to a famous and wealthy family but sadly, he was exposed to drugs early on in his life. He had been using and abusing drugs during the majority of his lifetime.

When his mother died, he no longer found meaning out of his life so he hanged himself to death, just two months after his mother died. He had a really sad ending because he too was alone and lonely. Nobody was there to comfort him during his moment of grief because he was an addict.

So he continued to seek the comfort of drugs and alcohol. These were the only things that gave him company during the last days of his life. He died with no one beside him but the substances he abused.

News of his death shocked and saddened me and my family, especially when we learned how he died. Had we known that he badly needed help, we could have at least welcomed him into our home.

The VALUE of COMPANY

 

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Stories of people taking their lives because of depression or many other factors makes me want to question why these kinds of things have to happen. Why do people have to take their lives when life has so many things to offer?

Every time I ponder upon things like these, the answer that comes to me is always the same; people get lonely and empty, and the only thing they need sometimes is someone to let them know that they’re not at all alone in this world.

Sometimes a little bit of time is what other people need to make them feel that they matter.

Just a simple gesture of care and presence from someone makes a lonely person realize that there is someone who is willing to spend time with them and listen to what they have to say.

Forget the material things, because they will never matter at all to someone who finds no meaning for his/her life. No matter how many piles of gold or how many bags of money you offer to someone who is depressed, they will all just turn into useless things.

An EMPTY HEART Makes An EMPTY LIFE

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Money, fame and fortune are worthless if your heart is empty. Life will always be meaningless if these are the only things that keep you company.

There will come a time when all you will ever need is a helping hand, an open ear, and a shoulder to lean on.

Time will come when your happiness will no longer rely on the material things, but on the things that will make you whole inside.

So if you feel like your life is incomplete right now because you’re not rich or you don’t have money, take a look around you and open your eyes to the things that you have in your life. What do you have in your hands right now?

The THINGS That MATTER

 

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If you have a loving family that sticks with you through thick and thin, then you are one of the luckiest persons on earth. Many rich people would give anything to experience a love as genuine as what a loving family can give.

If you have a loyal friend who lends his/her time to spend with you during times when you feel like speaking your heart out, you’re blessed because most of the rich and famous can’t even determine who their real friends are, out of all the people who surround them and claim to be their friends.

We have a lot of things to be thankful for in our lives. We just have to learn how and where to look, because they’re just there, waiting for you to notice them and give them a bit of your time.

If you feel down and lonely right now, try opening your heart together with your eyes. They will show you just where you should exactly look and where you should exactly be.

I wish you the fullness of heart and completeness that you have been looking for.

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